Bayangkan hiduplo... @ Q! Indonesia ;-)

What a welcome. It remembered me of Zurich Airport, warmly welcoming the French - for whatever reason -.. it is the first time in the tour the first words I read are: DEATH PENALTY. I have to think about the questionnaire I had to complete before entering the Indonesian territory: are you carrying film material? are you importing pornographic items to the country? Well. Is a stuffer pornographic? A dildo? A harnass? Is a multimedia show burnt on DVD a film? Shall I cross yes or no? I let you guess :-) at any case: I managed to get in easier than in Israel!!

Jakarta is a HUGE traffic jam in a pre-national-day fever... I thought I knew what it means to drive like mad after my experience in Sri Lanka, but there is obviously always a possibility for improvement on this earth.. :-) It is stricly speaking possible to go by foot, but practically impossible. At any case: any transportation from A to B necessitates half an hour at least, wherever you go, better: one hour. For sure if I write a song on Jakarta, it will be about the traffic...

Actually, no! it will be about the LADIES'FLOOR of the fully booked hotel. I tried to explain to the receptionnist that it might be quite a hassle to have a room on a floor where no man is allowed, with a female security guard taking care of any unwelcomed visitor with a beard and an obviously masculine outfit - there is no other possibility for me than to ask for a specific escort to go to my room on the 15th floor. Every night!!! The Ladies' Floor :-) Do I look like a Lady? The security Guard decides than NO, pretty much like everybody here adressing me as a man, if I wear a beard or none - this is not a relevant indicator any more here. Or not a sufficient one ;-)

But still, quite a lot of participants have been enrolling for the king's workshop. Concentrated faces. Humourous questions. Excellent mood. Serious work. Guys, you really made my eve on that day!

Before leaving for Bali and more fun, more screenings, more parties, a huge party has been organized to close the Java part of the Q! Festival... I was too glad to make the first Drag King Show on the Island that evening, in the most beautiful location on the Beach, the Segara... before we all drunk too much of that interesting cocktail and went crazy on the dance floor under the fireworks, the moon... and the fog.

Première of "Désarmés" in Tel'Aviv

Read the full article also here: haaretz.com

"Fucking Different Tel'Aviv", the third of the serie "Fucking Different" after Berlin and New York has been released and screened for the Opening of the Tel Aviv LGBT Film Festival on June 23rd... In "Désarmés - Surrender" (November Wanderin, 2008), the secretive and melancholic French dancer Daniel is invited to perform at the Israeli Modern Dance Company, directed by the choregrapher Avi, even more famous for his numerous sex encounters in Tel'Aviv.. I won't tell more :-) but for sure it is a fucking different gay short!

Happy and honored to perform for the opening in front of all the Festival Guests from all over the world, and quite a lot of acquaintances here, and even dear friends after a couple of stays there... The backstage of the Cinemathèque is quite simple.... it is just behind the screen, and it is... transparent! Nobody can see me, but I see the audience in front of me. Thrilling feeling of being invisible before getting very visible on stage! By 40° C my gaffer bands melt and I have to scratch them off my skin not to feel too awkward. It is quite historic for me, as I never show my chest, but - at the end, I decide for transgender pride!

Thanks tranny-bros for your great support and your commitment during the Festival. Yes, we are all beautiful! :-)

Kinging at the legendary à Loca in Sao Paulo!!!

After the fantastic party with the girls last Saturday at the Gloria Club, I could not leave Saõ Paulo without checking out the boys.. :-)

The club is so OFF that the driver can not find it at once... I wonder why the club is so famous and said to be the most incredible transgender club on earth??? The Maîtresse de Maison, a very tall, slim, blonde Queen, is welcoming me warmly and shows me all around the place. Everything is true, there are little swimming pools and sauna places like séparées, misleading dark corridors, columns and stairs, I think this must be the cousin club of the Schwuz in Berlin - underground style.. I feel home.

The boys fraction of the filmmakers from the MIX Festival, from Buenos Aires, Los Angeles or Hamburg, are all here in the first row to support me and I see them glowing of joy and excitement. The screen is much too far away from me, i can not interact as I ususally do, but it seems nobody cares: I am the first Drag King ever to perform in Loca, they say, and again I must see the boys puzzled and hardly believing I can change so quickly... some of them will come to me after the show to touch my beard or even my chest (no, not more than that ;-) making me through this simple gesture simply and naturally one of them.

Garotos! Pomba! muito obrigado..

God! Shave me... in Saõ Paulo

For a premiere it was quite one - Cris Barbie made an incredible job by customizing the party to the first Drag King Show in Sao Paulo! The doors of the Gloria Club, an ancient church (!!!), had to open one hour before to allow a thousand (awesome and beautiful) Paulistas...

I feel quite isolated from the ultra-loud party happening downstairs, where the most pretty girls I ever saw are kissing wildly on the dance floor, as my backstage is in the mezzanine, with 2 bodyguards in front of the stairs and of the curtain - an over-air-conditioned area where only very few selected VIPs have access. I wonder if I will be able, out of the blue, to give them a glimpse of what it is, what it feels like to blow the gender frames, as the flyer says, to be transgender..

The moment the spot follows me from the upper stairs to the stage, i see the bodyguards making the way free,  and see, Paulistas, here you are, you give me your attention at once, I see you all being amazed and confused to see me as a boy, as a girl, as eveything inbetween, I see your eyes wide open and your cameras all lightened as I shave my second face half in the white spot, I feel you dance and  jump with me on the 3rd sex sound, you gave me such an incredible energy and I go on, I nearly lose my voice on Homofobia, I see you shout and scream and raise your arms in front of the powerful clip of Saskia about the Parada Gay de Varsovia, I see you fight to get one of the flyers I throw all around the stage... and you say yeah! when I ask us to fight for our rights an freedom.

After the show i usually give one T-shirt to my hosts, but this time it is the only other drag king if the night, the oh so nice and cute Juliana from the Gloria Club, who gives me her own, I put it on at once to party "all night long" with the Mix Film festival crew...

Sad erotics, guilty pleasures at StudioxX

It took quite a while to paint the whole translation of the new song "Slow" on my body. Minette did it very thoroughly, we occupied the bathroom for quite a while. Of course everybody wanted to pee at that very moment!!

The perfomance in 3 parts has been conceived only for this exhibition of Minette...

www.doinggender.de A girl went straight to Lena after the show and asked her: "Is it a boy or a girl?" I could hear her question, so I stopped her in the corridor and said: I'm both, somehow.. She looked irritated, and for a little while, following her eyes looking for a more obvious gender sign on my body, I thought she might grab my torso or even between my legs, like the other person with the same question last year in Hannover... but she left, looking at me increduleously a last time before shouting the door.

ThanXXX Debra to shoot these precious moments... incl. best time ever in the bathroom to erase all these sad erotic words from my body with no guilty pleasure!!

Sweaty TriQ Party

I am always tensed before going on stage when I sing something for the first time, especially THIS time, as it is the first song I wrote with my brother together, the music seems to come directly from my heart and I feel like undressing my soul in front of the audience...

You said there is a place as wide as the sky Somewhere between the moon and the sea You said there is a place between dark and light A place beyond the he an the she

By performing it the first time, I dedicate the song to the TriQ Association working hard for the rights of transgender people.

www.transinterqueer.org And believe it or not: the ceiling is leaking... of condensed sweat!!! Is that the proof for a really great party?! ;-)

The documentary film is online NOW!

Hey! The blog of the film documentary about my crazy life "Risk, Stretch or Die" (Saskia Heyden, 60mn, 2007) is now online... check it out!

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